The Theory of Chaos and Change

When I was doing my Master’s degree I wrote a paper on Theory of Chaos. It was more a view towards organisational structure and change with a business view point but what struck me while researching it was how beautiful Chaos is. Too young to understand the full depth of what the learning was that…

Anomaly

The lockdown has allowed me to binge-watch my favorite TV show, The Big Bang Theory from start to finish. It was the best escape I could find to get away from the anxiety around the blasted pandemic. The more I watched Sheldon the more it reminds me of kids like my boy who struggle with…

I am because You are

Late evening 10 years ago on May 11, 2 weeks overdue, I was induced at the Cambridge University Rosy Hospital. 32+ hrs of labor later, I was taken to the OR and in the wee hours of the morning my husband was given a little pink package and he began the most important journey in…

Lockdown Simulated Play

To say that lockdown has been tough would be an understatement, more so for the poor and the vulnerable. I am struggling to keep my sanity as I navigate this unprecedented time in our lives, our country… our world. Never have we all felt the same and feared the same to this extent. More so…

But for now, This is how they are showing love.

We are all in the throws of fighting one of the biggest battles of our generation.The enemy has everything going for it : it is invisible, it is highly effective, spreads like wildfire and does not discriminate… though I hear it likes men more than women. It has become a very real and tangible fear…

To do List: 9. Rise from Ashes

The last one month has been a whirlwind of events, emotions and I cannot believe how much it has given me to think. I was going through my Photo Gallery of all the pictures I have taken in the last one month and this one struck me as the one that most summarises what I…

Autopilot

I am sitting here alone in the reception of the therapy center,  the boy is in a session. I sit and stare at my phone and scroll through meaningless posts and videos. Some raise my anxiety and some I just don’t register.  I appear bored, uninterested, tired, but my insides are like a raging tumultuous sea.Tears trickle…

To do List: 8. She beckons me.

The Ocean is beautiful, immense and incredibly strong. She has the power to nurture and kill. She holds secrets and throws out the unwanted. She is serene, clear and calming, but can be deep and dark and treacherous. I have this unexplainable attraction to the Sea. I am scared of her depth, she is so…

Swinging in the rain

Today my son took a walk to the YMCA park from home. It both scares the shit out of me and makes me super happy that he knows all the bloody roads and lanes in the 1 km range of our home… maybe even more, mapped out in his visual brain. He crossed 3 roads…