The Theory of Chaos and Change

When I was doing my Master’s degree I wrote a paper on Theory of Chaos. It was more a view towards organisational structure and change with a business view point but what struck me while researching it was how beautiful Chaos is. Too young to understand the full depth of what the learning was that…

Autopilot

I am sitting here alone in the reception of the therapy center,  the boy is in a session. I sit and stare at my phone and scroll through meaningless posts and videos. Some raise my anxiety and some I just don’t register.  I appear bored, uninterested, tired, but my insides are like a raging tumultuous sea.Tears trickle…

To do List: 8. She beckons me.

The Ocean is beautiful, immense and incredibly strong. She has the power to nurture and kill. She holds secrets and throws out the unwanted. She is serene, clear and calming, but can be deep and dark and treacherous. I have this unexplainable attraction to the Sea. I am scared of her depth, she is so…

To do list: 2. Acceptance

Acceptance or rather self-acceptance has not come easy. The journey has been like a walk to the Sea. It was really rocky and difficult in my younger days where I believed what people told me and what they thought of me. I doubted myself and judged through their eyes which is quite traumatic being young…

To do list: 1. Self Love

Last Sunday I went to Starbucks, as I do, to sit in the low hum of quiet conversations, the smell of coffee and subtle music. I looked over at my favorite sofa… Damn! not a seat free.  SO I just hung around the delivery section for my drink and literally smelling the coffee’s they have…